family

hello love ones.

i havent blogged for a few months and tons have happened. i think i was so caught up with my 'without job- without a school' scenario that i even forgot to mention i lost my first ever close kin.
GRANDPA'S STORY : gong's been suffering from really bad chest pains and had lost a substantial amount of weight. he finally went for a thorough check up and was admitted to the hospital. all these while, popo was doing really well! she wasnt her senile state as before and her sugar level went down alot. anyway. on jan 9th. gong's test results were out and it stated he was diagnosed with advanced stage lung cancer. (you must be thinking. my grandpa was a smoker.) well, he was. but he quit a few years back. anyway. he was devastated. who would have thought. grandma being the one in and out of hospital for the past 3 years. and then suddenly the news of my grandpa came in. 2 days before grandpa passed away, i stayed overnight at the hospital with him. and memories of him taking care of me when i was a kid came back.
i remember when i was in primary school, in the afternoon session, gong would come by to send me to the school bus. i would do my homework in the living room and he'd be a few feet away from me doing his daily 'qigong' workout. but that night at the hospital. it just felt so weird. from the date of jan 9th to the day of feb 18th, he went from a normal looking walking state to a bed-ridden helpless old man. i'll never forget the night i gave him a neck massage. and i'll never forget the next day when he cried in front of everyone. the man who was always strict and full of pride. actually cried his heart out to everyone.
anyway. at that point in time of my grandpa's unfortunate period, i was actually dating this dude. whom i would refer as one of the shit holes ive met before now. he decides to bail on me during my refusal of acceptance of my grandpa's sickness and the funeral. you know what shit hole? seriously. go hit your head with a frying pan. crap shit. argh.
and yea. po's been taking it quite badly. grandparents were a match-made couple but a perfect one. gong and po's 60th anniversary was supposed to be this dec. but apparently, gong couldnt hold that much longer.

a shout out to my grandpa : one of the most respectable men ive ever known and love. without you, my mandarin would be really like crap! haha seriously. please bless po from up there. and you know we love you always. xoxo.

PS. and oh people. my lasalle's interview's next month! (on the 6th of june. my GRANDPA'S bdae. what are the odds man.) wish me good luck yea. (: